Sunday, June 21, 2009, @ 8:58 PM
Freedom
To be free
To make my own decisions
To achieve my dreams
Without having to consult anybody else
But myself.
Gah! dream on! @@ a few more years and i'll be free from all this...
i hate being controlled n let no one force em into things i dont want to do.
However there are some people whom i cannot espace from until a certain age.
my dreams and hopes repeatedly crushed but i must bend to thier will for they have to authority and power to control me.
how long can i stand and hold my ground?
before i break and shatter into millions of pieces
before i regret obey ing and rebel against you
before you crush every one of my 'childish' dreams leaving me empty...
You get my hope up high and crush them when i need you the most,
You give me choices but insists that i follow the path you've choosen beforehand,
You'd ask me which i prefer but reject it full force without caring how i feel
And you expect me to be that perfect lil girl you see in the children of others
When you've never seen me for who i am and what i've achieved to make you proud.
All my achievements you shook them away as minor things but the achievement of others you praise till i cannot bear hearing anymore.
As time passes i've learnt to be independent as you hav brought me up to be. But as I begin to spread my wings in an attempt to fly, you are afraid that i'd no longer need you and broke the little confidence in me so i'd grow to be the perfect girl you want me to be...
Numb [linkin park]
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless,
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
And every second I waste is more than I can take
And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be...
