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Monday, November 7, 2011, @ 12:11 AM
fear vs confidence :D
ACCORDING TO WIKIPEDIA... :D
Fear is a distressing negative sensation induced by a perceived threat. In this case,the treat is the chance of experiencing continuous failure even after ages of hard work, and physical pain of hitting the damn board.
Self-Confidence is generally described as a state of being certain or an attitude that relates to self-assuredness in one's personal judgment, ability , power, etc. In this case, is the belief of one's ability to succeed, which is breaking the board. :D
It may look simple to some, and impossible to others. But, when standing in front of that board, with the insufficient ammount of either one (or all of it) confidence, skill and power? it is damn hard. In order to get the title of a first degree black belt in tae kwon do, we're required to break 6 of these boards. each with different techniques.
when I had to do it? it was horrible. knowing that you've failed so many times and feeling like people are judging you? i hardly had any confidence at all that i was going to be able to break it. But now, after 3 years. It doesn't seem that hard anymore. And watching my juniors trying again and again the same technique? just hoping that, with this kick, it'll break and they won't have to suffer the feeling of failing AGAIN. and watching them trying to hide their disappointment, I felt really really bad for them. I totally know how it feels like. So after watching you guys today, here's what i have to tell you. :)
But after failing like crazy while taking 1st degree black, I've learnt that, giving up before you fight means a 100% chance of failing. Being scared is not wrong, but giving up and losing a whole lot of confidence is a different thing. Confidence is not a thing you can afford to lose if you intend to succeed. Believe in yourself regardless of how many times you've failed and try again. Try again with all you have and maybe this time you'll get a different result? Maybe this time, instead of feeling your foot ON the plank and feeling pain all over your body, you'll feel your feel in the air, and a satisfying and loud crack indicating the the board broke and you've won this part of your battle. Of course, although confidence is an important factor, power and skill are also equally important. Power can be generated through confidence but skill only comes with hard work.
So if you've truly worked hard and tried your best? There is no shame in failure. Just get back up and try again. Being the one holding the board, I feel you all improving every time you try. And I believe that soon, very soon, you all will be able to break it. Just pick up whatever confidence you've thrown away. :) like I'd say EVERY SINGLE TIME before you guys kick the board, you can do it, it will break.
that's all, now back to me :P
And of course also after 3 years, I'm now finally moving on to pursuing the title of being second degree black belt. :D and its damn difficult. 3 years ago? i would have NEVER been able to even try do the stuff I'm doing now. The board is now thicker AND heavier. The techniques are crazy. and I'm gonna need even MORE confidence, skill and power. (and of course another important thing, LUCK) although my target was to take it on Nov 19th? i now highly doubt that its achievable. But I'll try anyway :D the breaking part can be post phoned :P so there. i know saying is easy, so its time i prove to you all. :) no matter how hard or how long it takes me to do it? I'll break that stupid board -.-
