i remember. do you?
what seemed like forever ago, we were best friends. lotssa drama lotssa crap lotssa bitching but also memories that i would never let go of for anything.
we were naive, to think that it would last, to even dare to hope that things would be more or less the same. at first, we worked hard for it to be the same. each and everyone of us, in our own way. but then as time passed and distance took place, the drama that we used to be able to suck up and get it over with, we no longer can. So instead, we learn to avoid, its easier now that we are no longer seeing each other. So we avoid. and the longer we do, the more we feel that its not worth fighting for anymore. Things are just like that.
But once in a while, i would look over the pictures we took years ago. and i would realize, wow. we were once so happy. were we ever happy? i cant even remember ever being happy with you all anymore. but i would try my hardest to remember that moment. and i would realize. yes we were happy. the happiest time of my 19 year old life. when no matter what happens i know i have these people to count on and they would know that they could count on me in return.
look. i love this picture. dont you? i remember us standing there and posing untill no one else passed by, and us, shamelessly posing and taking pics in front of out schoolmates. i remember, the guys mocking us, and us proudly replying. "so what? jealous ah?"
I remember cheryll, and how much like siblings we used to be. her coming over to my house almost everyday after school b4 tution. Us carpooling EVERYWHERE and seeing each other so often we were sick of each other. Now, we hardly see each other anymore, what i wouldn't give to see her more than once a month? sure. distance and time is a problem but even after all that, i'm glad that i know we're both still fighting to keep up what we used to have. because as long as we both don't give up what we use to have will not be lost instead it will grow to be amongst the most valuable thing in life. a true and long lasting friendship.
Weiyi. the only one of the gang that has been classmates with me for 3 years. Who sat next to me in class, who saw through all my tantrums and cursing. Who is silent and patient when I'm mad *which is almost after every assembly -.- (cuz of prefect duties) and extremely noisy and bullying when im happy. SEE? even in the picture she mocks me. i look like a chipmunk she says. her chipmunk -.- but if thats what it takes to communicate with her, then that i will be for as long as it takes. Yes its been a long and extremely difficult year, (2011) and it was painful, and that pain is hard to let go but know this, you did not suffer alone. it was hard keeping up, but we still did. and yes, we;ve both said things we both regret. but i know deep inside i could never really let u go. do u feel the same?
Gaik Sim. throughout the whole of high school, we were ALWAYS fighting. cuz she talks too much -.- and I couldnt stand it sometimes cuz she NEVER LISTENS TO ME. exactly like how it is in the picture. But of all people, of all possibilities, i never thought that you'd be the one to work the hardest to maintain out friendship. But in these 2 years, you've proven me wrong. and because of that, of all the 7 years we knew each other, we are closest at this point, closer than we ever were in high school. and although there were things that i couldn't stand and prejudice that i thought would never go away, i have, for some time now, learned to appreciate how much a friend u are to me. and yes you may think that the prejudice we have clouds all the things you've done for us, and that might just be true but its not clouding me anymore. for sure.
Chiew Tsann, the one that annoyed me most. more than the others. and that being said she got to be the 1st and only person I've ever slapped in my life :) (long story) Somehow the things she does just annoys me more than if its done by other people and therefore, the one i've been most honest with. I'm sorry you had to go through all that straigthforwardness and sarcasm from me but then again it was NOT one way. -.- i remember us fighting and not talking A WEEK. cuz you didnt wait to go lunch with me. it was stupid. young and stupid but that was the longest we've ever not talked to each other at that time. 1 week. NOW, not talking for 1 month is normal -.- i know you've tried, i've tried too but perhaps not quite hard enough. But it seems to be going pretty well, we'd still be close whenever we actually talk. its just rare er now. and although of all of them, i see u the least, you'd still be among my greatest friends. :) forever.
Weiyi and sim. i think is school, in our little... clique, there was little duos. Me and Ryll. Mun and Tsann and then there's Sim and Yi. Once they would tell each other everything. but of all of these duos they were 1st to fall apart. why? i don't know. maybe one or both just gave up fighting for what they used to have? but from my point of view, it was a great loss for they cared for each other more than anything in the world and being friends with the other meant happiness for them. Lots of prejudice, drama and bad times. but thats what girlfriends are for isnt it? in the end its them being there during our worst times that matters. no? For even if words dont show how much they cared for one another once, actions did.
Cheryll and Tsann. I duno what kind of weird friendship these 2 have. tsann being the shortest in the group and Ryll being probably the tallest (same height with yi) LOL okay that is insignificant. They were classmates for a while and all they seem to ever talk about is, homework o.o'' or random stuff. But anyhow things pretty much didnt change alot for them even after 2 years of leaving school.
Cheryll and Sim. the DARLINGS. well they are STILL darlings, calling each other lovingly -.- and sim always aggressively showing her 'love' and ryll always laughing at her hiong ness. Its very fun watching how carefree their friendship is. Its always been like that and still like that. Carefree and fun, without expectations. I guess we need some of that sometimes to avoid awkward situations when the others are in 'cold war' right? DO continue as such. XD
Tsann and Sim. AN EVEN WEIRDER combination. The were never close. -.- despite being in the same gang. i duno how they manage it. but here they are. XD However, AFTER school i guess both had got to know the other more now and its been less.. awkward. and they can even both stay in the same room together without being awkward anymore! isnt it a great development?!
Weiyi and Tsann. SEE? everyone teases her height :P hahahah okay she's not THAT short la but its fun to tease her anyway. They were once very much like ryll and sim. carefree and expectations free. All they ever seem to do is tease one another. But like eveyone in our group when one is in trouble the other cares. They REALLY care. See once upon a time. long long ago, these 2 girls have the SAME problem. this... problem we all know :) and they helped each other through it. :) it may not have worked so well but at least they tried. but it think by now they've both grown out of this... problem right? cuz if not i might just kill them myself -.-
Weiyi and Cheryll. the best couple actors. They can appear more lovey dovey than ANYONE can. And during Tc2, these 2 crazy girls played the hero and heroin for titanic, AND enchanted. one being the prince and the other Gissele. oh.. that was a joke -.- Well, see they were somewhat close and somewhat not, but at one point in time, me along with 2 of them, had this thing, we called it 'you guys' cuz every time we try to justify why we are not telling whatever 'secret' or 'problem' to the rest we would only be able to come up with.. " cuz they are not YOU GUYS wad." and we actually said that MANY MANY times. until you guys became an inside joke. ahhh i miss you guys :)
♥ ♥ ♥
And that was just part of what we once had.
a friendship that i would continue to fight for as long as i can
because all those pain, tears and laughter,
i remember them. do you?
the happiest moment of my life. captured. to last forever.
