I MISS MY BAMBEE!!!!! T.T ALOTTTTTTTT!!! huhuhuhuhu

so this is the longest if EVER stayed away from home. a total of 4 weeks! and 2 more to suffer before i can FINALLY go back. and now i feel it -.- homesickness. I went to pasar malam the other day and they were selling puppies and one was a golden retriever puppy. so i went near to pet it. and the moment my hands touched those fluffy golden fur, my tears started welling and when i pulled back i realized shyt i miss mine -.- When i left for KL the thing that i THOUGHT i would miss the most was her cuz unlike my friends and family i cant talk or see her online. But throughout this 8 months, eventhough i go back often i have very little time spent with her cuz whatever free time i have is spent with my friends. Friends whom i feel insecure with, whom i felt if i don't make initiative to keep in contact with, they would go away. Whereas, my dog wouldn't. And this absolute security has caused my neglect for her.

So without realizing it, i have distanced from the one most loyal and faithful to me.

2nd October 2009. When we took her in. She was innocent, friendly and loveable. Wagging her tail at everyone that sees her.

A little devil that brings more trouble into my life. pee ing ang poo ing wherever and whenever she likes. at that time it was MY dog. so its MY responsibility to clean it up. and she refused to be toilet trained -.- or mayb i was a lousy trainer. i dunno.

Then she grew. One by One earning the love of my family members. First melting the heart of my grandmother who at first thought dogs were smelly and troublesome things (she was at 1st) and refused to touch her at the beginning. Then moving on to my brother, who was scared of dogs all his life. My friends who often come over to my house, and would come even more often JUST to see her. and the finally my father. the strict and most unhappy person when me and my mom brought her home. He HATED dogs and couldnt understand why we would bring back this.. thing. But she has a gift, whereby everyone who knows her would fall in love immediately.

but as she grew, the golden fur grew back and before i know it, she was not a puppy anymore, she's a dog. That was when we moved to a new house.

Her new sleeping place was at the front door. And one day, because of the huge renovation my neighbor had, the ceiling fell on her. SO what happened was, the construction workers forgot to close up the hole the drilled and during the storm at night, water filled it and flowed into my house, the ceiling could not bear the weight of the water and fell. Right above my dog's head -.- Cuz of the shock she stood there under the fallen ceiling and in the rain without alerting us. And was only discovered the next morning when we woke up. Poor thing was scared half to death and since then she became paranoid at everything. She no longer wagged her tail at everyone, instead she would be defensive and bark before anyone would go near her.

the ceiling that fell on her.

But this defensive ness OF COURSE does not apply to the family.

and of course, she no longer slept at the front door and has moved up to MY bedroom instead -.-

so even though she might be a fierce and crazy dog to others she was still the same loving dog she was at home. and instead of a friendly golden, she had somewhat transformed into a pro guard dog.

So I'm getting lazy now, here's some random shots of her :D

2nd October 2011 her 2nd birthday. :)

her at this point in time. :) pretty not? :D

 The stray that jumped over the gate just to come see her -.-

Me forcing her into a camwhore session :P

Lotssa love!