Good morning world :)

i KNOW its 1.00pm -.- but in my defense i slept at 4.00am.

Blogging cuz i just woke up with an awfull feeling. :(

its been a while but its happened before.

woke up crying, tears still running down my face, my pillow all wet, my heart clenching, and body stiff,

And i remember my dream from last night as clear as it might have happened in real life.

damn. -.- abandonment. its always the same theme. only with different people in it.

WHY am i like that? in psychology, apparently all this insecurity and fear comes from your childhood, some incident, or the way you were brought up. But i really cant remember the whole big chunk of my childhood. i think the oldest thing i'm very clear about starts from the age of 10. what about before? And i only realize this when i was asked to do a self reflection for childhood and infancy module.  Haih i guess I'm gonna have to dig it out of me soon. by the end of this year hopefully i'll know why I'm like that.

OK i'm done venting :) time start my day.