Tuesday, December 11, 2012, @ 6:15 PM
unloading
these few weeks has been a bitch. I''ve got so much on my mind, so many things to do, so many problems thrown at me. And for the first time in many years I dunno who to go to anymore. I used to be so sure who i can talk to, who i could trust. People i used to be able to count on with my life, i cant anymore. But recently my fears became doubts and ultimately, my doubts became avoidance. The stress is getting to me and at what i felt, was my time of need, no one was there.whereas i felt although no one was there for me, i still had to be there for them. and its really tiring now. work is one thing, but friends and family is another. expectations are not the same. And because people began to doubt me, i startto doubt myself and my beliefs in life. and now after many many reflections, im torn, from what i feel and what i want to feel. and it sucks -.-
